Jul 14 2009
The Journey Continues
Over the past few days, I have been trying to mediate. I am not very good at it, I just can’t seem to turn off my brain. I have read several techniques and none of them seem to work. I have tried mediating in the morning, in the afternoon, or at night before bed – nothing is working! I have been reading that it is important to mediate to ground and center, I just can’t seem to do it! My brain will not turn off, it seems that the harder I try to chase away the errant thought, the faster they come and the more detailed. Then I tried focusing on just one of those thought, but nope, it caused even more wayward thoughts. I am wondering if maybe because of my ankle pain, I am having trouble concentrating on nothing? I know it takes practice so I am still working on it, but come on – think of nothing already
I have been reading about “fetches” these are sort of like poppets but are made with a very specific purpose – very detailed, they fetch the purpose and bring it back. They are made for use in a short time period (like a month) then are dismantled. I am thinking about “fetching” a job? I think I have the idea down, but I do need to let it roll around for a while before I make and use one. These are made of beeswax and other elements that I should be able to find in the yard or at Hobby Lobby. I found a couple of rituals; one goes into a great deal of detail and the other is sort of vague – so I need to work with them to ingrain them into my brain to get a handle on what I need to do.
Miscellaneous Stuff:
The cinnamon in the screen porch is still working – no sign of ants!
Last week when I did my full moon esbat, I have been using a candle as a background light that I got several years ago for Christmas. It was supposed to have “presents” imbedded in it. I never used it and it was sitting around for over 10 year, so I decided to use as one of the candles that provides light during my rituals. Anyway, I have been burning this candle a lot and there never were any of these “presents” I thought they were at the bottom, well last week, during the ritual I noticed something glittering in the wax, it was dark so I could not see it very well, and I just let it lay there. When I cleaned up, I put the candles back in the screen porch and forgot about the glittery thing. This afternoon I was sitting in the screen porch reading, when I remembered. I got the candle and there buried in a thin layer a wax was a small gold full moon charm! How cool is that? A full moon charm revealed during my full moon ritual??
My ankle is hurt – I have ligaments that are “torn to shreds” – according to the doctor. Yes I finally went to the doctor. Anyway, I am on crutches and need to stay off of it for a couple of weeks, then have it re-evaluated. Maybe physical therapy - maybe surgery depends on what it looks like after I am off it for 3 weeks.
Found a new site that has some great information –http://herbalmusings.com/classes.htm. I have been reading some of their downloads
